| I think I need to update this more often. I don't know why I don't because it's not like I have a life or anything. I've got so much to focus on, like my last semester of my high school career, my job that I'm close to loosing because I've become careless and tightening all my loose ends. Speaking of loose ends, I miss everybody, ALOT. I don't know what to do with myself half the time. I mean things are going amazing for me right now but there are so many people I miss right now. I would give alot to be able to go back in time and re-do so many things but I just don't have the time or energy and I guess you could say the will. Maybe I don't miss them as much as I THINK I do but I KNOW it sure is a hell of alot. I'm past the point of exhaustion. It doesn't matter how much sleep I get at night. It's kind of weird because I'm amazingly happy and "full of energy" in a sense but my body is completly drained. Maybe I'm just getting sick but it's frustrating when I want to be out there having fun and being me but my body won't allow it. Not to mention I don't have the time. I miss being able to go home after school, laying down on my couch, watching TV or just going out and having fun. Now I go to school and work and by the time I'm done with that around 7:30pm I'm too tired to do anything so I lay down with Matt until he leaves for work at 9pm and then I go to bed. It's incredibly routine, and I'm not the kind of person to do routines. It's depressing and I think it's starting to get the best of me. |
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| Happy 18th Birthday to me!!
I like how my stomach is killing me
&& I can hardly walk
but I don't even care
cuz it's MY BIRTHDAY!
=]
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| I'm not turning pages in my life anymore
I'm starting a new book
I don't know if thats allowed technically
but I've always been kind of a rule breaker
so whats one more rule anyway?
I'm gonna push myself
&& I'm gonna sucessed with something in my life..
for probably the first time everrr.
I'm gonna be 18 in less the 24 hours =]
I think it's time to do something with myself
grow up a little
&& do the things I've been saying I'm gonna do for a long time
It's time for me to proove myself as something in this world
Step 1. Apply myself.
... and I guess I'll figure out the rest of the steps as I go
=]
I like this whole positive thinking thing. |
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You know those gut feelings? The ones you really can't describe with words but deep down you know they're good. More then good, they're amazing. This boy has given me that && I owe him more then I could ever possibly give. My 18th birthday is in a little more then a week =] |
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| Not a clue who this is..
but they made my day.
orchardview99
(4:13:42 PM): you are a fucking ugly ass hoe who deserves nobody or
anything in life. you are a bitch. alot of people talk shit behind your
back and you just think they are oh so damn perfect. all of your
friends are ugly as fuck and your boyfriend, no wonder you two are
together, both ugliest bitches in the world. go get those freckles off
your damn face and your teeth fixed then you may look halfway decent
untill then bitch you are ugly and look young as hell you look like you
dont know what the fuck is going on
I don't even know what to say lol.
A bitch?
yea sure maybe.
but come on.. my freckles and my teeth...?
Yea, let me get right on that...
but in the mean time.. couldn't you find something better then that to rag on?!
I don't know what is going on?
Apprently not because I had no idea everyone was talking shit about me behind my back.
Jeez oh petes.
At least someone has the guts to say it to my face
Oh yea wait..
they can't even do that.
I may look young as hell
but maybe its cuz I am young?!
But at least I can act my age and not send stupid messages on AIM. lol
Yeah my boyfriend && I are meant for each other
Thanks for noticing.
He's pretty damn amazing
&& so are my "ugly" friends.
I'm glad you pay so much attention to my personal life and facial features.
Quit wasting your time. I don't care if I'm ugly or that everyone talks shit about me behind my back. At least I'm happy with my life and the people in it and I don't have try and make myself feel better by sending middle school messages. |
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